[mood : puzzled]

Well, if I had to have any dilemmas, I suppose these are the best to have.

I was talking with my friend Jodi, whose a registered nurse. I’ve known her for some 19 years and I graduated from high school with her eldest son, who is one of Sally’s and my best friends. Of those ninteen years, she’s spent the last 13 of those constantly in college. As a nurse, she has to pretty much keep going to school the whole time so I trust her knowledge.

According to her, since I’m on Medicaid, I’m almost assured to be able to get financial aid to pay for college. In fact, it’s highly likely I’ll be able to get another Pell Grant to pay for it like I was able to get when I went to college the first time.

However, I need a job. Mom, even with the job she starts on March 1st, won’t be able to keep us afloat without at least one other of us working. Frankly, I want need a car again… I gave it up when I moved up to Mt. Pleasant because the insurance was killing me. I can’t stand living without that freedom anymore.

So this brings me to an interesting dilemma: Do I get a job and risk having trouble getting funding OR do I remain unemployed and have the funding almost guaranteed? I wasn’t really clear on how it worked the first time and I don’t remember what little I did understand.

I have never wanted anything so badly as I want this Web Development degree. I was rather lackluster the first time when I was preparing to go to college. To be honest, I was burnt out from High School and the last thing on my mind was more school. But I went anyway and failed miserably. Now, years later, I’ve found something I’m passionate about. I want this, but I’m also realistic enough to know I blew my chance at being able concentrate solely on college.

All my IRL friends and family have listened to me and advised me to go for it.

Which brings me to a new dilemma. Sally bought this computer in October 1999 for a steal with the sole purpose of being able to join Theresa in EverQuest. Now this beast is a dinosaur and in order to even attempt this online course I need a new machine. And to say I’m on a budget is the understatement of the century. Which in and of itself, almost necessitates I get a job, which brings me back to the first dilemma. XD

I suppose what I need to do is call Jodi back and have a longer talk when she isn’t being pulled in so many different directions. I should probably call Poppa too and ask him for his advice. If any of you have any advice, I’d love to hear it, please. =)